November 20, 2006
reprieve
The last chemo I had has left me a bit more wiped out. I think I can understand somewhat what being “shell shocked” must be like - there is a feeling of violence done against my body that’s hard to shake - that is being imprinted on a cellular level. The more chemo I get the more emotionally intolerant I become of it - basically it just wears me down emotionally. It feels like I need some time to just release all this poison and violence - a reprieve.
Spent Sunday on Gambier. Watched an incredible storm pass over in the morning, and it was clear and warm in the afternoon.
posted: 11:52 am
Hello Dear Keith,
So glad to hear you have taken the last of your chemo "treatments" (never occurs they are much of a treat). And thank goodness you have maintained your solid, soulful, solace throughout. I’ve read along, felt sad and frightened for you sometimes but always sure that you will come through this with your particular gentleness of spirit.
Big love and peace - J
Well written as always, Keith. May the "clear and warm" last a long, long time.